A slightly similar thing happened to be after my last episode and hospitalisation. The night before I was hospitalised I went to see a friend. Afterwards she said to me it had crossed her mind i might harm myself. Why is it so hard for people, even very close friends, to ask you what you're thinking! To talk about it! I may not have been honest of course but sometimes when intrusive thoughts are reflected back as us it is easier to see them as that. It puts them back into reality. I hope you're doing better now. Keep writing :-)
This is so real. I want to believe it’s because they value the relationship and don’t want to offend/upset us further. Also sometimes I find it really hard to “be honest” and share the intrusive thoughts!
A slightly similar thing happened to be after my last episode and hospitalisation. The night before I was hospitalised I went to see a friend. Afterwards she said to me it had crossed her mind i might harm myself. Why is it so hard for people, even very close friends, to ask you what you're thinking! To talk about it! I may not have been honest of course but sometimes when intrusive thoughts are reflected back as us it is easier to see them as that. It puts them back into reality. I hope you're doing better now. Keep writing :-)
This is so real. I want to believe it’s because they value the relationship and don’t want to offend/upset us further. Also sometimes I find it really hard to “be honest” and share the intrusive thoughts!
I, at least, totally get you! I wrote a similar piece and published it here! So many years of feeling wrong and wronged 😭
Thank you, Molly. I’m sure you know how relieving it is that someone out there gets it. Oo can you link the piece? I’d love to read it.
Indeed. Shedding “wrong” and “right” and healing from feeling “wronged” is probably a lifetime project for me.
https://open.substack.com/pub/earthquakemolly/p/earthquake-molly?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=5po3w0
Keep your wife's teaching close to your heart. Keep dancing in the rain.
In her memory! =)
So glad I found your Substack.